“I resented him so much, and I always put the tough face on…the ‘I can do anything’ face, tried to play it off,” she later explained to Sawyer. “But he knew…He kept asking me, ‘You hate me, don’t you? You hate me,’ and I would lie and say, ‘No.'”
The truth, though, was as painful as the experience itself. “Everything about him annoyed me, him being around me, him talking to me. Everything was annoying for me,” she shared.
That included what she felt was the stilted apology he’d delivered on YouTube. “I know that he felt really bad,” she added. “I just didn’t know if he understood the extent of what he did. The thing that men don’t realize, when they hit a woman—the face, the broken arm, the black eye, it’s going to heal. That’s not the problem. It’s the scar inside. You flash back, you remember it all the time. It comes back to you whether you like it or not, and it’s painful.”
Finally, she surmised, “I just said, ‘We can’t do this. I cannot continue to do this.'”
