Tiegen said she doesn’t think Luna and Miles have fully grasped the situation—and neither has she.
“I don’t think they’ll ever quite understand why he didn’t make it, in the way that I don’t understand,” she continued. “I had a placental abruption, and I keep having to ask my doctor, ‘OK, but why? Why wasn’t it able to work? Why didn’t we just keep going?’ And they were like, ‘We physically would’ve run out of blood in the hospital. Were we going to do that for 20 weeks in the hospital?’ That’s still something that I’m coming to terms with, why we gave up. Honestly, the [kids] still catch me in a funk some days. And the first thing they go to is, ‘Is it baby Jack?'”
Still, Teigen, Legend, Luna and Miles continue to keep Jack’s memory alive. “At school when they draw things, they draw him as an angel,” she shared with Scary Mommy. “We talk about it a lot. What felt comfortable for our family was him always being around. Whether we go on a vacation or something, they always say, ‘Don’t forget baby Jack.’ And then I have to pack him up. And then we get to where we’re going, they’re like, ‘Oh my gosh, he must be thirsty.’ This might sound crazy to people, but they’ll put a little glass of water next to his little box of ashes. And they really love being a part of it.”
